vuloe nitcantrea

You are real
only real
everything
but nothing not
now going, but yet gone
to the clouds of effervesence
i look on from afar
at you.
a child drifting
without a thought for the joy
they bring
they leave
and inevitably take....

always standing in the shade
but always looking for the
sunrise
you know
more than most
and say nothing
is worth dissappearing into the
night


I can feel you where i go and where i
stay
Your altruism overcomes
but it is only what you own and
not i
no.
never.
not without you.

You see through the brick
through the steel facade
scary
comforting
and you always come for the music
shining like a diamond prism
and embrace the real

The mindnumbing oval opaque blue hues
that burn up my soul
I see them in everything
and nothing
I see them in my nightmares
of love

You are all that i wake to
all that i can dream of as
goodness
in my eyes
your smile that intoxicates
but makes me prostrate
with anguish
your skin and smell
that send me to the
euphoric nebula
in a system familiar
but terrifyingly unknown.
and escape is impossible
A peacock among sparrows
a nebulous love that drowns
never holding on
never holding back
never
and for what?
my tryst of a thousand year chance of perfect
beauty and compassion.
incarnate peace?
sublime karma?
No
it is natural
what you do
the only real star left in the
black
sky


I sit on the snows ofkilimanjaro
bare
it is now apparent to me
after eons of introspection
u will be my demise
u will be my achilles tendon
I will slowly dissipate into the fire
the all pervading fire
that i have no business experiencing
that i was not meant to know
built wrong
differently
but i dont care anymore
because i now know
that it all dies
you are not
the only one
and sadness is key
but i know life just
wasnt meant to be
long
for me.